1stly, i deeeeeply depressed, soooo depressed bout my rsult..bukan bermaksud saya tidak bersyukur, Alhamdulillah..temo, hm...i'd done the best n i think i cannot do the bestiest anymore.. i dunno y..ya Allah, in the month of ramadhan..i take this granted month to ask for your forgiveness and i really2 wants u to help me in my life to get better lifestyle fiddunya wa A'khirah.. walaupun sdah lulus, temo, i espected more than that, but, i just get this..astaghfirullahala'zim..adakah benar ape kamu ckpkan ni? saya rasa cam xlarat dah nk usaha..penat . . . lelah. . . . letih. . . .tensiooon!!!!!!~~~!! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
really2 sad with the rsult.....adakah saya bleh jadi better than that?? hm......i really cannot very sure bout this...
mak...walaupun mak xrasa beban langsung menaggung anak mak ni..tapi, jauh sudut hati kakak, kakak rasa bersalah sgt2 sbb kak xmmpu lagi mnggung hidup kakak..kakak rasa mesti mak sedih kan...
mak....walaupun mak bersyukur sgt result kakak ni...tapi, mak mesti sedih kan anak mak ni xsepandai anak org lain...mak, kak rasa kak dh cuba terbaik mungkin dah mak..kak rasa xlarat dah mak...kak
rasa usaha kak ni sia2 ja mak, and kak xtahu apa yg xkna dgn diri kakak...adakah kak selalu berangan sgat mak?? hmmm....mak, kak harapkan doa mak je mak..kakak harap doa mak je mak..kak harap doa mak je mak...
tiba2 kakak berasa bersalah sja kat Allah..adakah Allah membenci kakak mak..mak, adakah Allah melaknat kakak mak......
mak.....
mak............
kakak taktaula camna nnti kalau mak takdak...
kakak bleh je hidup sndiri, tapi, i need some1 to share pain laugh n give me motivation...
motivation mak yg buatkan kak smagat ntuk hidup...
suara mak yg buatkan kak berani nk hadapi smua ni mak....
i know that we must put Allah 1st...
but i really need motivation from u everytime i feeel so down...
and now, i don't know y im crying while writing this,....
im so sorry if i had troubled u mom..
really2 sorry mom...
with u besides, i really know that, Allah just want to test me.. just a little bit...He can test me more and more depend on my iman level...
my iman is very low...
oh yaAllah, guide myself to the right path...
please don't take my mum yet...yaAllah..
i really love her very2 much...
and i can afford if she gone....
ya Allah...
really need Allah's help now..
thanx Allah..
for not making me fail
but little bit frustrated.
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little bit
frustrated
jealous
malu dgn kwan..
who am i to them
malu
malu
malu
depressed
help me
ya Allah
